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Friday, January 14, 2005

i got this fortune telling of Pig's 2005 from an friend's email .
IS it really? I shall see .
For the Pig,

Overall
Problems will occur this year and you will need to handle them with a calm
mind. There will also be chances for you to change into a new job. Whatever
the outcome, always be strong and show your determination, do your very
best. Build better relationships with people. Do be more alert as you may get
hurt easily this year and avoid water sports.

Wealth

You will need to work hard in order to earn more money. Your wealth luck will
depend on your hard work. Be more alert when investing.

Career

There will be many changes that you will need to adapt to this year. Be
more alert when investing. When handling documents, always do thorough checks
before signing. You may have a chance of going overseas to work or
travelling for a holiday.

Health

Avoid climbing and doing dangerous stunts. When going outdoors, do not go
alone. Do be more alert of your own safety. Take note of the food that you
eat to avoid food poisoning.

love
Youngsters should avoid falling in love at such a tender age. They should put
their studies first. There will be many conflicts in the relationship of married couples and they will need to be settled, quickly.

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I am like freezing in lab and I had not be able to touch on any experiment yet. They promise me that they are going to put me into my feet all the time next week? ( omg) As my research will start next week.

I felt a surge of insecurity . My research is funded under research grant. If the grant is depleting ... so I will be out of job. In other words, it depend on how I perform.
Well , I will be dealing with Human blood where I got to carry out DNA extraction and real time PCR . I heard that my project is related to a clinical trial in progress.

Sounds great but actually when u get into the mud , it is boring and just routine.
When I look into the people working in a research labs, i saw a great passion that is burning in them. Although everything about them is cold, quiet and serious but I saw fires and yielding in their eyes, sort of wanting to contribute to save the mankind. They are there because they have the passion in the greatness of Sciences. How they want to make use of the high technology of scientific research to turn the doom of diseases- inflicting nation into healthy being.

Our lab conduct more than 40 different tests of different kind of diseases. And the samples just keep coming in , teamwork, communication and able to meet the tightly planned schedules is very difficult. They have no time to bitch ....like me and all samples have deadline, mostly within 10 days. We dun have the luck to do 1 test. We are juggling with 10 over tests each time. Hence, organising and careful planning beforehand is very important. Wooh ... multitaskercity!

Actually I hardly get to real tok to the people there. While taking their lunch, they can even tok about work. For a newbie like me , lunch means 1 hr, precisely. For them, lurch means finished eating for 5 mins to 10 mins and straight away cheong LAB work !

This is wat i can feel, in their mind, is all about the planning the tests(whether can finish this , finish that by that time) and how to go about optimizing their research... because they are so passion, focus and their pride on their work. The work is like life to them.. maybe I should not call it work...A HOBBIES.....no , is it LOVE . Love is a powerful cliche... but still works anyway. Without love , u may lost hope in life.

U tik OT means extra $$$, there FOC OT man ! Cano finish lab must stay back till long long . Early come, back late. Coz they are fully packed ! Alt sat must come back also .

For me, I am still adapting to their environment which i felt it hard to digest. Just 3 days i am there, I felt .....breathless. i am still thinking about having one cup of yogurt in one hand and other hand an apple with earpieces stuck in my ear.. blissfully blasting with " Sixpence none the richer " songs. While doing that , I can still check my yahoo account after i finished checking the drug . Sometimes when a call comes , i took out one earpiece and start chatting away , while doing that, I take a potatoe chip from my colleague , lynn and say tank u and starting chatting away. After that, i turned back and tok to Ms pang about her latest vacation trip to Korea, she bought me a hp hanger , a cute korea doll from korea. BTW, i had finished the coco that they gave to me ..

back to my sit , I pull out my lst drawer, WAaaaaaa.... FULL OF SNACK like cereal , teabags , biscuits, fruits , coco, blah blah blah. JUNK foods!

I am shamelessly confessing my sinful lifestyles in my previous job. A.... vacation .

Now I had replaced them with piles of books for me to digest
" Practical Approach in method of testing Infectious agents. "
" A practical approach to PCR"
" A to Z DNA"
"Protocol in mutation analysis"
forgotten...........la

no music, no msn , no foods, no toking, no surfing, no comfortable sit, no db screen backup by powerful pc system, no porn ( yeah u believe) , no peeping at cute joyce, no toking to mr nice KL, no toking to chattty ms pang and lamey koh.
Wat about few of those young gals ....the evalutors? ! I can't believe they are the evalutors as they simply tok about my love life *(yes they ask abt my bfs ... no la no la ...I bisexual 1 la!) ... u know wat the normal youngsters in their 21s are toking.. no education level gaps while they can be as professsional in their working as they want. wat abt RAima?She gaves me those shoes ! Hoe nice! Catherine ? She gaves me a ginger bread man in christmas! Ms pang? She gives me tig tig air tight food container in christmas! Breaktimes? yes.....own self service.

how can i fit to tok abt been in research while my mind is abt enjoying? Where is my original dreams , have they been washed away by the tempting of desires in life?

I guess I need more time for adaptation

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